It's been a lazy week on the diet/exercise front. Not sure why, but it just was. I stepped on the scale this morning and I was neither up nor down so I'm holding tight.
I feel like I'm in a funk. It's been hard for me to motivate, hard for me to cut back on my portions and hard for me to care about trying to lose weight. I think partially it's because I'm smaller now that I have been in YEARS and I'm totally psyched about that. I reached my goal. I'm there! Yeah for me.
But now what? I have yet to figure out what my next goal should be. I'm not sure what I want. Do I want to be a certain size? Do I want to lose X amount of pounds? Do I want maintain here? What? I need to think about it and really try and focus on a new goal. And I really think it's important to have a goals in mind so when you do accomplish one, you have something new to strive for.
In the mean time, I'll try and get my groove back this weekend, but more likely it will be next week since my weekends have always been my pitfall. The plan is, we have some family coming over on Saturday for a BBQ and Sunday we're celebrating our friends 3 year old birthday on Sunday. Both events sound like opportunities to dive off the deep end and gorge myself or opportunities to make good choices. I hope it's the latter.
I'm ready to check out of this work situation for a couple of days, it's been a bitch lately. And can I also add the drop in the stock market and bad economic news has become quite a bore.
Friday, October 24, 2008
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
The Bad and Good
Sheesh, where o where does the time go? I can't believe a week has passed and I'm FINALLY posting again.
Here's just a glimpse of what's going on in our life right now. We hung out with The Husband's best friend and his wife this past weekend who had a very fast and furious start to their relationship and now seem to be unravelling at that same pace. They met when they were involved with other people. She married, he, dating a woman. They both left their significant others and within a month bought a house together and moved in. A year after that, they had a child together and a year after that they got married. They've been married a year and a half and it's not a happy relationship. He and I were emailing today and I offered to let him move in with us and I think he'd love to, but is just too far tangled in this mess to see his way out right now. I'm glad it's not me, but it makes me sad to think about them. Love shouldn't hurt nor should it be so difficult.
On another front, would you walk away from a mortgage on a vacation home if that payment was putting you in an extreme financial situation? So much so you worry about losing your primary residence? And no, this isn't me, but someone I am related to.
My work is awful. With the economy falling apart, our billing is down a good 50% or more. I wouldn't be surprised to find some downsizing happening, which would be a first for the company. Even though I am only working part time, I don't thing I would be in jeopardy since I am one of the people who generates income for the company. I would suspect the support staff gets hit first. Or at least that's what I think would happen, but I suppose anything is possible. Just make all this madness end.
On some positive notes...
The Husband and I are happy.
I never owned a vacation house so I don't have to worry about that.
Work is hard, but at least I have a job.
Here's just a glimpse of what's going on in our life right now. We hung out with The Husband's best friend and his wife this past weekend who had a very fast and furious start to their relationship and now seem to be unravelling at that same pace. They met when they were involved with other people. She married, he, dating a woman. They both left their significant others and within a month bought a house together and moved in. A year after that, they had a child together and a year after that they got married. They've been married a year and a half and it's not a happy relationship. He and I were emailing today and I offered to let him move in with us and I think he'd love to, but is just too far tangled in this mess to see his way out right now. I'm glad it's not me, but it makes me sad to think about them. Love shouldn't hurt nor should it be so difficult.
On another front, would you walk away from a mortgage on a vacation home if that payment was putting you in an extreme financial situation? So much so you worry about losing your primary residence? And no, this isn't me, but someone I am related to.
My work is awful. With the economy falling apart, our billing is down a good 50% or more. I wouldn't be surprised to find some downsizing happening, which would be a first for the company. Even though I am only working part time, I don't thing I would be in jeopardy since I am one of the people who generates income for the company. I would suspect the support staff gets hit first. Or at least that's what I think would happen, but I suppose anything is possible. Just make all this madness end.
On some positive notes...
The Husband and I are happy.
I never owned a vacation house so I don't have to worry about that.
Work is hard, but at least I have a job.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Weekend Recap
This pretty much sums up our weekend at the beach house.
Now, it's back to the crap hitting the fan at work. It's been a tough couple of days in the office and I don't see any end in sight. In the mean time, I'll hold tight to the wonderful times we had over the weekend and wish I was once again snuggled up to The Little Miss.
Friday, October 10, 2008
Things I'm Not Going to Do
We leave this afternoon for a mini family vacation. We're heading about 30 miles south to a little beach community and renting a small house on the beach for the weekend. I'm planning on watching all the kids play nicely together.
They are not going to fight over toys, they are not going to dump buckets of sand on each other and they are not going to fuss about anything. I just know it.
I'm not going to worry about the economy. I'm not going to worry that we have taken a big hit at work and I am not going to make fun of Palin all weekend, I'm just not, I promise.
What aren't you not going to do this weekend?
They are not going to fight over toys, they are not going to dump buckets of sand on each other and they are not going to fuss about anything. I just know it.
I'm not going to worry about the economy. I'm not going to worry that we have taken a big hit at work and I am not going to make fun of Palin all weekend, I'm just not, I promise.
What aren't you not going to do this weekend?
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
My New Life
As many of you know, starting in September I decided to cut my work hours back and work only part time. Although it's been an adjustment financially for us it was easily one of the best decisions I've ever made.
My new life goes something like this. I wake up with the morning light about 6:30, and lay in bed until The Husband gets out of the shower or The Little Miss wakes up. It's a crap shoot on what will happen first, but regardless I find myself hitting the floor around 7. I then have an hour and a half to get myself and The Little Miss, fed, clothed, lunches and ready for work/school. Now all you readers that don't have kids will be thinking, well, shit, that should be easy, it's an hour and a half, what could possibly take so long? For those parents out there, you all know it's a bit more complicated because getting a toddler to do anything requires selling the idea and incentives, also known as bribes. Yes, I bribe my child. And those of you who say you don't are either really good sales people or just plain lying. I have a hunch as to which it is, but I'll just leave it at that.
We rush out the door at 8:30, do the drop off at pre-school and I am sitting at my desk at 9a. Whew! It's a tight schedule but somehow, we've made it everyday, except for the one time where she was having the classic toddler fit kicking, screaming, crying and acting as though I had just told her she had to walk 6 miles in the snow and sleet to school with no shoes and not just told her she had to clean up her blocks and walk to the car.
I work until 1p when I then have me, me, me time until 4:30 when I go pick up The Little Miss. The time I have to myself is golden. It's precious time for me to refuel, to recharge and to do my things. Even if it's just going to the grocery store or doing laundry, it's time I can focus and slow down.
My relationship with The Little Miss seems less strained. I no longer resent her for taking up "my time." And yes, I know when you have kids you really forfeit everything, but I still need balance. We play more and struggle less. We laugh more and cry less.
I have to say, I am so much happier these days. It feels as though my life is much more simple and my priorities are more in line with what I value. I never realized how stressed and how unhappy I was before. With the burden of juggling so much lifted, the ease of my life is sharply coming in focus. I have much more patience and I feel as though I can breathe deeply and am satisfied.
My new life goes something like this. I wake up with the morning light about 6:30, and lay in bed until The Husband gets out of the shower or The Little Miss wakes up. It's a crap shoot on what will happen first, but regardless I find myself hitting the floor around 7. I then have an hour and a half to get myself and The Little Miss, fed, clothed, lunches and ready for work/school. Now all you readers that don't have kids will be thinking, well, shit, that should be easy, it's an hour and a half, what could possibly take so long? For those parents out there, you all know it's a bit more complicated because getting a toddler to do anything requires selling the idea and incentives, also known as bribes. Yes, I bribe my child. And those of you who say you don't are either really good sales people or just plain lying. I have a hunch as to which it is, but I'll just leave it at that.
We rush out the door at 8:30, do the drop off at pre-school and I am sitting at my desk at 9a. Whew! It's a tight schedule but somehow, we've made it everyday, except for the one time where she was having the classic toddler fit kicking, screaming, crying and acting as though I had just told her she had to walk 6 miles in the snow and sleet to school with no shoes and not just told her she had to clean up her blocks and walk to the car.
I work until 1p when I then have me, me, me time until 4:30 when I go pick up The Little Miss. The time I have to myself is golden. It's precious time for me to refuel, to recharge and to do my things. Even if it's just going to the grocery store or doing laundry, it's time I can focus and slow down.
My relationship with The Little Miss seems less strained. I no longer resent her for taking up "my time." And yes, I know when you have kids you really forfeit everything, but I still need balance. We play more and struggle less. We laugh more and cry less.
I have to say, I am so much happier these days. It feels as though my life is much more simple and my priorities are more in line with what I value. I never realized how stressed and how unhappy I was before. With the burden of juggling so much lifted, the ease of my life is sharply coming in focus. I have much more patience and I feel as though I can breathe deeply and am satisfied.
Monday, October 6, 2008
Here's What I Got
The weekend has come and gone. Why they go so quickly still boggles my mind. Here's what I got on tap this week.
I was trying to lay out some weekly goals and it seems like they are always the same ol' boring things, but they seem to be working ok so I'm sticking with it.
1. Drink lots o' water
2. Get to the gym (or get some form of exercise) at the minimum 4 times
3. Eat healthy
4. Eat small portions
5. Have fun
I have also flirted with menu planning which, when I do it and stick with it, it's the best thing ever. When I do menu plans and don't stick with it, it sucks. So in an effort to do some menus for the week, I'm throwing these out there for options and we'll see what happens.
1. Grilled sage rubbed pork loin, potatoes and veggies
2. Asian steamed fish, coconut rice and veggies
3. Some sort of pasta with tuna and capers... don't know why but I've totally been craving this lately. Weird.
4. Hamburgers/hot dogs
I only need to do 4 dinners this week since tonight I'm going to a concert with a friend's husband. My friend didn't want to go and The Husband (my husband) didn't either so, we're spouse swapping for the night. Should be fun, especially since the husband I'm going with is super dang hot. And no, we're not really "swapping," but I am going to a concert with a really hot guy that's not The Husband but is a husband to a friend.
Then on Friday, The (real) Husband, who is also pretty dang hot, The Little Miss and I are heading to a beach house with another family for the weekend. We'll let the monkeys run wild and completely wipe themselves out and we'll get drunk every night. I can't wait. It's a good thing.
I was trying to lay out some weekly goals and it seems like they are always the same ol' boring things, but they seem to be working ok so I'm sticking with it.
1. Drink lots o' water
2. Get to the gym (or get some form of exercise) at the minimum 4 times
3. Eat healthy
4. Eat small portions
5. Have fun
I have also flirted with menu planning which, when I do it and stick with it, it's the best thing ever. When I do menu plans and don't stick with it, it sucks. So in an effort to do some menus for the week, I'm throwing these out there for options and we'll see what happens.
1. Grilled sage rubbed pork loin, potatoes and veggies
2. Asian steamed fish, coconut rice and veggies
3. Some sort of pasta with tuna and capers... don't know why but I've totally been craving this lately. Weird.
4. Hamburgers/hot dogs
I only need to do 4 dinners this week since tonight I'm going to a concert with a friend's husband. My friend didn't want to go and The Husband (my husband) didn't either so, we're spouse swapping for the night. Should be fun, especially since the husband I'm going with is super dang hot. And no, we're not really "swapping," but I am going to a concert with a really hot guy that's not The Husband but is a husband to a friend.
Then on Friday, The (real) Husband, who is also pretty dang hot, The Little Miss and I are heading to a beach house with another family for the weekend. We'll let the monkeys run wild and completely wipe themselves out and we'll get drunk every night. I can't wait. It's a good thing.
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